Spark @smallesttiger@awoo.space

I have such caregiver burnout, I skimmed a stupid article on Facebook this morning about nice things to do with for your partner who is struggling with mental illness and my gut reaction was immediate nope nope nope

I went climbing last night and it was SO MUCH FUN. I’m starting yoga in a few and then more climbing and i can’t wait to be that person

I can’t wait to be a weird scruffy old hippy

Sometimes I think “why do people like Florence + The Machine so much” and then I listen to What the Water Gave Me again and I’m like FUCK. That song is literal magic.

I got a haircut that keeps my sideburns, my very first intentional facial hair ^_^ #transguymilestones

This is probably also because @Fuego is away right now and since I am pretty much incapable of letting myself be sad when any other person is nearby, I tend to store it up so I can be mournful the whole time she’s gone.

About a month ago my dad cut all contact with me. I went through a phase of being upset and sad, then resigned, then I had a really hard few weeks because I couldn’t stop remembering all of the reasons that he was a terrible person.

Today I’m feeling melancholy because I listened to a song that reminded me of him in a roundabout way and now I’m thinking about all of the positive memories I do actually have.

(they are cranky that they have finished eating and not yet been released, because the old cat who has to eat alone isn’t done yet.)

You know what makes reading difficult text in Japanese easier? Nonstop background cats meowing!

at some point the New Englander strategy of just being able to dealing with a feeling quietly seems really valid to me. Do we have to process everything out loud together? Sometimes we all just need to grow up and accept minor discomfort.

Also I am feeling so so so burned out about queer interpersonal politics, hearing that Person A doesn’t like Person B because Person B made an offhanded remark about not wanting to play with Person A one on one and now Person A is feeling hurt and weird and needs to talk to them about it….

I mean, I have open blocks of two hours but they don’t like feeling “sandwiched between my time with other people.” Currently riding a line between being understanding and flexible and learning how to tell someone that their stuff is their own stuff.

Going solo to a play party this weekend so I could relax and have fun and not have to manage other people’s emotions and possessiveness, but the friend I am staying with had a death in the family and is delicate and started crying on the phone because we wouldn’t have much time together between my dates with other people. Unpaid emotional labor never turns off.

#introduction hello! I've been here a little while but don't post much. I'm trying to do more/meet more people. Queer poly kinky trans guy, professional dog trainer and formerly aeronautical engineer. Furry and pagan to varying degrees. I read lots of fantasy and sf and study Japanese and love food and work out and I'm trying to learn to play MtG well.
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Trying to be really good and not spend any money ever, but I found cash in my pocket and everything is awful so I'm getting a GF donut. ✨🍩✨

Having a lifting program that is specifically three days a week does a great job of keeping me on track, because if I skip a workout my cycle is all messed up and that is horrifying to me.

It's hard to find the separation between novels I love and novels that show something about me, but I can look at all of these and say there's an important part of me in each of them

1) The Last Unicorn - Peter S. Beagle
2) American Gods - Neil Gaiman
3) For the Love of a Dog - Patricia McConnell (not really a novel I suppose)
4) The Trainer (Laura Antoniou)
5) The Riddlemaster of Hed (Patricia McKillip)

There is a Jesus Christ Superstar screening/singalong at a theater here coming up and I am SO excited. It's such a weirdly intense religiously significant movie for me--I'm not Christian anymore, but I was raised Catholic and I have a lot of fondness for aspects of it still. And I looooove a good Sacrificed God.