Trans Meds, Suicide Mention (+)
I mean I know it's still there, and it'll very definitely come back at some point? But right now I just can't seem to access it. Like, a pile of shit happened this week. It normally drives me into massive depression and I reach for the comfort of inevitable death. But right now I try to do that and nothing happens.
Instead I scheme and plot and plan.
Trans Meds, Suicide Mention (+)
I don't know what the fuck is happening to my brain and I'm not really even sure that it's anything gender/dysphoria/euphoria related? I still hate my body, but I don't dwell on it. Like, I can't dwell on it.
It just reals like... I'm in the right mindset for things.