Trans Meds, Suicide Mention (+)
Okay so now that I'm a week in and no longer feeling physically terrible... Two things I have noticed about HRT:
1 - I am still angry but instead of overwhelming incoherent rage I've been able to sharpen it to a fine point and have been smiling while telling people to go to hell.
2 - The part of me that's basically just a slice of oblivion is inaccessible. Like, I try to reach for it but it's not there. I am not capable of wanting to kill myself.
Trans Meds, Suicide Mention (+)
I don't know what the fuck is happening to my brain and I'm not really even sure that it's anything gender/dysphoria/euphoria related? I still hate my body, but I don't dwell on it. Like, I can't dwell on it.
It just reals like... I'm in the right mindset for things.