:name_badge: Ind. Spudpuffet @spudpuffet@awoo.space

dear mom and dad:

ok i know we're having trouble paying all the bills but listen

i need to buy some chunky yarn and a giant crochet hook A.S.A.P.

what?

no, no of course i'm not going to be really excited about this for a week and then drop it, just like the last ten hobbies

how could you even THINK that

:sweat_smile: :innocent: :volleyball: :pick: :spider_web:

next gonna do a layer of pink and then sit around feeling incredibly pleased with myself for having Done A Thing, however poorly XD

like, the tension is all over the place and i'm not quite convinced i'm not doing something backwards and i've lost the thread about a thousand times

but the square is still squarish and not falling apart and i could actually make something out of many squares

no matter how shabby, it still works WELL ENOUGH for now and it scratched my textiles itch

<3 <3

lately i've been incredibly unsatisfied creatively

today i watched crochet tutorial series by @WelshPixie

scrounged up smol thread (old bracelet kit; no yarn handy) + smol crochet hook (asst. hooks from last attempt to learn crochet; +5 years of excellent toothpickery)

here's my first granny square!

i only practiced a very tiny bit so technically this is shit; but it's MY shit and holds together and pretty colors!

https://awoo.space/media/rf7wfZ8qlfPOiKfzeVs

oh nooooo OTL

i watched the start of a crochet tutorial series and now i already want to make a crochet vest out of rainbow paracord

(dad crocheted a vest in - college? high school? -and i never saw it but i waaaant one)

(but i only ever learned to knit, not crochet, crochet is so confusing to me X.X)

(but this tutorial set makes it look so easy @u@)

*scuttles around in ansty circles* i wanna play with serial knots agaaaaiiin *whines*

oh right, THERE's the crippling despair and niggling guilt re: money! i was wondering where it'd been . . .

*settles into hot car*
wrist joint: awwww yesss
everything else: aaugh fuck whyyyy

*falls over* i am cannot emotions today
*stares blankly at wall*

*flops* i greeted newcomers to awoo
on my toot.cat account

-.-