katt, migrating 🌟 🌈 @starkatt@awoo.space

I've started reading Permutation City and even though I basically philosophically agree with all of its claims about consciousness/personhood so far, it's still a bit spooky sometimes.

tentatively dipping my fingertips into this mug of tea, like a kitty.

I think the only thing I've actually blocked was a HN bot though.

I'm being *way* more aggressive about muting people on Mastodon than I ever was on birdsite.

A good development, I think.

Frustrated at how ubiquitous drag events seem to be for weekend events at queer clubs around here :/

...I swear that the hold music for the unemployment office sounds like a stereotypical oldschool porn soundtrack.

My speakers have a button labelled "sfx" that does nothing but invert the phase of one of the channels. It's The Worst.

...please do not eat the desiccant.

So I looked it up and it turns out the silica desiccant gel in those "do not eat" packets is generally harmless if you eat it.

LB: y'all seem decent about this and I appreciate it :)

To be clear, I'm not trying to say that emotional pain is because of her. What exactly I do mean, I'm still trying to figure out. "Oversight" isn't really the right word but it's the closest I could come up with. Maybe like water in an estuary? Separate but interacting and intermingling, each moving within the other.

Driving home from a partner's house, I saw a sliver of rainbow. I've never seen that after sunset before, and took it as a blessing.

Today has been hard, emotionally. Seeing that rainbow made me realize that Rain Goddess also has broad oversight over hurt and sorrow. She... cares about us, though her caring can be difficult to bear.

With all that said:

Today has been the kind of day where nothing has been wrong per se but it nonetheless feels like something in the back of my head has been screaming the entire time.

Feels like I've taken a big emotional hit somewhere.

Follows are open because I want to be a little less gated. However, if you followed just because you see me as a source of content and not as a person to get to know, I'd kind of prefer for you unfollow me.

If you've followed me and we haven't interacted, please say hi or reply to posts or something? I'd rather see something of you than feel like you're just lurking.

Hi :)

Okay, so apparently a toot from last week is still getting boosted and I'm getting unexpected followers. So let me be clear:

*This is a personal account*.

Even if boosts do feel nice, I'm ultimately here to make connections with people, not Build An Audience. I want to be able to talk about shit going on in my life. If it starts feeling like I can no longer do that, something has gone wrong.

Mew, sorry. This is basically a formulaic complaint at this point :/