mourning
I'm starting to renormalize. Things still aren't okay, but I'm feeling more okay with doing normal stuff. Part of the process.
I want t be very clear here. Renormalization is not the same thing as forgetting. I don't want to ever forget Natalie.
Part of the reason the candle is in my bio and not my display name is I want it to be there forever. I don't want there to be any reason for me to drop it within a couple months.
(my last headset was USB so I could do it just by sending sound to the different device)
Remember, remember, the 5th of November, the gunpowder treason and plot
Which was used to persecute Catholics more than before
And was perpetrated by a man who wanted to install a Catholic theocracy as opposed to the Protestant theocracy that existed at the time
History isn't always rosy and sometimes there are no good guys.
What I am reading now: the second book in Ann Leckie's Ancilliary trilogy. It's hard to describe the premise without spoiling the FLAWLESS way Leckie unfolds this universe in the first book. Seriously, she learned her chops in short stories, and it shows. If you love putting together the jigsaw puzzle of a world as an author reveals them, do yourself a favor and pick up "Ancilliary Justice" blind.
Seattle suburbs are different from a lot of other suburbs in that a whole lot of the trees were left standing as part of development. I'm glad for it.
death/mourning, parents
Also, y'all, please get HPV vaccinations and pap smears.
She did a lot of outreach on this topic in the months before her death.
death/mourning, parents
When my mom died, I didn't feel quite this way. I was sad, yes, but it was different.
She died of cervical cancer, and knew it was coming for months. She chose the time to stop getting life-extending treatment. She and everyone around her had plenty of time to reach acceptance. Though it was definitely too soon it felt... natural, cyclic. There was no shock when she finally passed.
This doesn't feel anything like that.
Moving to @starkatt
I'm a leftist trans gay fox girl. More than one thing can be true at a time. I believe in agency, subjectivity, and beauty.
In my day job, I'm an apprentice electrician.
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