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Personally I tend to feel like filk is generally more miss than hit, but I'm really glad it exists.

mourning 

I'm starting to renormalize. Things still aren't okay, but I'm feeling more okay with doing normal stuff. Part of the process.

I want t be very clear here. Renormalization is not the same thing as forgetting. I don't want to ever forget Natalie.

Part of the reason the candle is in my bio and not my display name is I want it to be there forever. I don't want there to be any reason for me to drop it within a couple months.

(my last headset was USB so I could do it just by sending sound to the different device)

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I want to be able to switch between headphones and speakers in software. My motherboard has jacks for 5.1 sound. In windows 10, is there a way to use one of the other jacks as stereo headphones output if I want to?

Science. Technology. Engineering. Mathematics. Long ago, the four fields lived together in harmony. Then, everything changed when the Engineering Nation attacked.

Remember, remember, the 5th of November, the gunpowder treason and plot
Which was used to persecute Catholics more than before
And was perpetrated by a man who wanted to install a Catholic theocracy as opposed to the Protestant theocracy that existed at the time

History isn't always rosy and sometimes there are no good guys.

mourning, funeral rite 

I ran out of characters in the post, so here's my CW- the following post will be a funerary rite to honor Natalie

What I am reading now: the second book in Ann Leckie's Ancilliary trilogy. It's hard to describe the premise without spoiling the FLAWLESS way Leckie unfolds this universe in the first book. Seriously, she learned her chops in short stories, and it shows. If you love putting together the jigsaw puzzle of a world as an author reveals them, do yourself a favor and pick up "Ancilliary Justice" blind.

I've complained before about the Gregorian calendar not having good intercalary days, but experiencing 1am twice is pretty nice.

Goodnight for real, now.

Y'all are so, so fucking important.

We have each other.

We must.

This evening I have seen a string trio improvise pieces in response to audience theme suggestions and I now know what it looks like when people are drift-compatible.

Seattle suburbs are different from a lot of other suburbs in that a whole lot of the trees were left standing as part of development. I'm glad for it.

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Seattle thing I didn't have to do back in Albuquerque: remember the locations of all the different suburb cities.

death/mourning, parents 

Also, y'all, please get HPV vaccinations and pap smears.

She did a lot of outreach on this topic in the months before her death.

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death/mourning, parents 

When my mom died, I didn't feel quite this way. I was sad, yes, but it was different.

She died of cervical cancer, and knew it was coming for months. She chose the time to stop getting life-extending treatment. She and everyone around her had plenty of time to reach acceptance. Though it was definitely too soon it felt... natural, cyclic. There was no shock when she finally passed.

This doesn't feel anything like that.

Will probably change it further when Awoo gets Natalie's candle.

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