negative, spiraling
i watched a buzzfeed video that compared apartments in new york by their rent cost and even the cheapest one is better than the one i presently live in (with 3 other people) and now i’m just kinda drifting into a depressive spiral
i will NEVER EVER be able to live like that, not even in the cutesy 1.7k/mo studio apartment, because i'll never be able to get that kind of income on my own due to mental illness
i'm just a cute fat pet that nobody can afford to take care of