brain stuff (+++)
i had a doctor's appointment today to ask about the sort of things i could do about the extreme measures i need to take to get over my inertia and actually *do* anything productive, because it turns out that's not typical at all
so, he gave me a trial of an adhd medication to take this morning, and now that it's the end of the day i can conclusively say: holy shit
i didn't feel even a *little* bad about starting to do things! is this what it's like to have normal motivation??