@cinnamon it's also fun because of how much my mind fixates on the idea of cute ideas, and wanting to be cute
i think that's actually where any sort of libido i do have comes from too. and because i don't find outright sex cute, paradoxically, my libido basically self-destructs if i start thinking about it
@cinnamon that basically leaves me with a really confusing situation of knowing my aesthetic, but not actually being able to grasp it tangibly
so, there are things that push my buttons, but those things are hard to imagine before they happen (or i think reaaally hard about things that "might" be related)
@cinnamon practically speaking, that means that even when i have the chance to interact with my kinks, i'll gladly do that--but i won't really know what to do beyond that
it also means that, because i interact with a lot of these things on a more passive level, i don't feel particularly strong urges to do things...and instead usually just end up thinking about my obsession du jour instead
but i'm also convinced that would change drastically if someone managed to conjure up the right aesthetics