mh (~)
overwhelmed, but with a plan; just gotta remember one step ahead of the other
mh (~)
that was pretty vague, but i've been playing the world's most emotionally draining game of flappy bird with my means
the reason it's draining is because there are several people who depend on me not failing, because if i go down, they would too--and that is 2000% the worst outcome
like, if it was just me who would go down, that would be great
and while i accept this responsibility, the source of my ability to help is getting nebulous, and i might have to find other means to not fail
mh (~)
i'm pretty confident i can pull this off, but it's also a lot to add to the things i'm already juggling, and the prospect of slipping up is still really intimidating
i've already planned ways to make sure everything is fine in basically every outcome, but the idea of not accounting for something in a literal ocean of horrible results is also eating at me like nothing else
which is why i need to just find ways to not psyche myself out so much--to remind myself that i've got this