kink
thinking about how much i worried about people learning that i liked something weird compared to the reactions i actually got when i confided in them
almost universally, the reactions i got were "wait, that's it??"
it's like they were disappointed it wasn't something wilder, and that i just spent so much emotional energy on the most innocent thing imaginable
kink description (abdl)
there probably aren't many peeps who follow me that don't already know, but juuust in case, i may as well elaborate!
tl;dr - i'm abdl, which for me means i'm someone who thinks diapers are cute, and having them as a part of my self-image makes me happier overall~
combine this with being asexual, and essentially the vibes i like the most are just comfy and cozy ones!
and i mean, yeah! it is pretty unusual–but i definitely overestimated how much it ire it would draw
kink, abdl
i don't know what i expected
them: "so, you are saying you like to feel cute and be comfortable in platonic settings by wearing underwear you like?"
me: y-yes
them: "get out of here, that's too hardcore, man. friendship over"
i legit thought i would be ostracized
and while there are definitely people who can be icked out by this kind of thing (which is why i cw!) it's almost funny how distorted my perception was
things i appreciate about being abdl
compare that to now, where i legitimately feel lucky that i'm abdl!
- i have a pretty-much-unlimited well of passive happiness in a place i wouldn't normally because of it
- it acted like a shield towards the Not Great views surrounding me growing up--since i was squarely outside their toxic status quo
- it's a pretty dang good filter for removing people from my circles who would cause my other friends to quash their own quirks
but, also!
- it cute (imo)
things i appreciate about being abdl
it's no exaggeration to say that being abdl is the source of a huge number of positive traits that i have now that make me who i am
ones that i wouldn't trade anything for~
and for all the interpersonal-kryptonite i worried it could become, it also has indirectly informed the way i interact with others to such an enormous degree that i feel has had the opposite effect; making me legitimately a better person
which makes me happy too!
