sad
amazing how much profound misery i paper over with social interaction
i'm tired and lonely and sad all the time these days. i can barely get out of bed in the morning. i feel worthless, and more worthless when my broken brain can't focus on my creative passions
all of that mostly goes away when friends are online but it's still there in the background. no wonder i'm obsessed with getting to know people
im sorry for making you all my unhealthy coping mechanism. i dont know what else to do
sad
i want to make new friends and be better friends but i dont know how and dont want to come off as desperate or bother people too much and i probably dont need any more friends anyway and so i dont even try