Mental Health
I find myself day dreaming a lot of escapist fantasy a lot more these days and devouring also sorts of average at best, trashy at worst science and fantasy novels. Like way more than I did even in the worst parts of my not great childhood.
But at the same time, I'm moderately successful, not drowning in a pile of debt or broke or being abused. I'm just unhappy a lot having trouble holding on to fleeting moments of happiness and my general outlook of the future is dark and scary.
Mental Health
Maybe it's discontent.. sure what to call it.
Just... dissatisfy comfortable? Not uncomfortable enough to try to change things.. unsure how or why?
I don't like it. Some negativity is bleeding into everything even though I try to be positive.