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I hate this feeling. It's stupid but at the same time I want to talk about it because it's grinding right now and feels like it won't go away until I get it out somewhere.
Commissioning art is hard for me, like nearly anxiety inducing. It's why I don't do it very often. It's time consuming (or at least it can be) stressful because you are putting a thing that is in your head out there and trying to express it in a manner so someone else can translate it into a visual something....
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things.
Aurora offered to help found someone.. and sure two page of overly expressive prose might be too much but really you are trying to put this piece of yourself out there and you want t get it right? All of got are words since i can just pluck an image from my brain and say "Like that!"
So someone says, "Well can you make it shorter" and you do.. still keeping the key parts you hope..
But them here is the part that makes me get so gunshy about commissions..
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The result doesn't look anything like what you intended, at all. But what can you do? You paid up front. The money isn't really the issue.
It takes to make something like that... so did you screw up? Did you not communicate clearly? What happened?
Here is the worst part. At the start you were excited.. and now it is the worst kind of disappointment.. because you blame yourself. Maybe you weren't clear, maybe your communication was inadequate, maybe not but you can't say that.
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It sucks... and maybe you weren't to blame but it was a joint effort and now you are left with something that you aren't happy with, it will probably never see the light of day, can't really be fixed and it's a crappy feeling.
And you go back to not commissioning art again... or maybe just not new things because they are hard and a risk.
Now I guess I need to write a few thousand characters of something positive to offset this.
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@wobblewuffess I honestly entirely feel you here.
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@IrisKalmia It's a crappy...crappy feeling :(
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@wobblewuffess 1) do that. 2) find artists willing to work with you
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@IrisKalmia Yeah.. some folks reached out to Aurora during my vent and offered though it will probably be a while before any motion happens on it.
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@wobblewuffess I'm always suggesting Kos for work, but well, bias <3
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@IrisKalmia well I'm totally not biased and Kos does pretty awesome work.
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@wobblewuffess @IrisKalmia
I sense praise in these here toots!
@wobblewuffess *hugs softly* I can relate so hard to this ;~;
@mawr I have a distinct feeling.. a lot of people do and none of us like saying.. which is probably why I felt the need to ramble about it.
The words were stuck and needed to come out or it was all that I was going to be talking about and thinking about. :(
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So like I've had some really amazing stuff commissioned in the past and gifted to me. Things that made my jaw drop or literally all I could thing of was "NAILED IT!!!"
That is awesome. I love that feeling.
And SAM makes it pretty easy, I have a decent amount of stuff of her over the years to reference though never actually a reference sheet. Some of you probably I've had a new shape rolling around in my head for a bit. But I'm always so wary and almost scared to commission art of new..