Wobbly One Of Myriads @wobblewuffess@awoo.space

Don't get me wrong, my younger brother is a drug addict, he has serious mental health issues and PTSD as the result of a years of physical abuse from my former stepdad and sexual abuse by a neighbor as a toddler...

During his teens he was definitely.. edging into scumbag territory and has stolen and pawned stuff from friends and family..

But after 2 years in prison for a drug charge he had started to get his life together, focused on taking care of his two kids and got married, had a stable job until Druggy CI buddy showed up a month ago.

He clearly needs serious mental health treatment... last time he saw someone.. we never got the full details but he also was abused in prison.. apparently.

So... he is a mess, he needs help.. but class warfare justice dictates drug use is a crime and not a mental health issue.. so he went to prison for heroine he didn't have on him at the time of his arrest (utah allows people to be charged with prior possession based on blood tests).

This fucked his life harder, it is extremely difficult to find a job with felony drug possession in Utah.

Knowing the court system out there... he will go likely do hard time for this... because of previous convictions.

I'm just... sad and angry.

I never knew how to help my brother... or my father with their struggles with addiction and PTSD.

I still don't. I just... I hate that the world is the way it is and that it broke someone with so much potential. I remember this creative, curious, intelligent person before the addiction...

I wish he could be that. I wish he could learn to deal with the horrible shit life dealt us as kids with out drugs... I know he will never stop being an addict... I hate the way our world treats people like him.

The last time I saw him in person, he was this focused, caring person that was getting up at 4am every day to work construction to make sure his kids had a place to live and a better childhood than him. That was 7 months ago.

So my little brother, the addict is looking at 5 years to life for aggravated robbery...

That as far as we can tell... and his well paid DA has determined so far.. is based on the testimony of his old druggy buddy turned CI who recently showed up in his life and basically destroyed it and the fact that a truck that look like his was seen on a traffic came nearby. (Not exactly an uncommon vehicle, 2011 Black Dodge Ram 2500 diesel 4x4 4 door, especially in that part of Utah)

Of course CI druggy "friend" is not in jail while my brother has spent a week in jail with no bail posted, and no charges until today (day 7).

During which he started having seizures from methadone withdraw because the county jail refuses to give methadone to him or any other meds for that matter.

Oh and they are charging him $45/day for the jail stay.

Druggy buddy is the person responsible for getting him kidnapped and beaten by a local gang because buddy got him using again... and took him somewhere to score... said gang knew buddy was a CI and beat, tortured and kidnapped my little brother, took his truck and stripped... forced him to sell drugs at gun point (later witnessed by my mom when she showed up at the location his phone was pinging when she turned on the tracker).

The robbery in question took place while his wife swears he was at home and his phone shows the same...

He is also being charged with a parole volition (drug stuff from a few years ago) because his phone was stolen when he was kidnapped... and his PO ignored the voicemail from him because it was from my mom's phone number... thus the PO is insisting that he missed a check in..

Now I'm extra sleepy because I missed sleep for this.. like a whole hour and half..

Ugh... I was supposed to get my hand zap measured today... (nerve conductivity) and the clinic lost power :(

@mawr Hi Teri!

Bleh... spent the last 3 hours and some change sick in the bathroom... and now I'm craving veggies and carbs... but at the same time... thought of eating makes me feel sick... and I'm hungry.

I would like to request a better frame, maybe one with durable internals..

@mawr That sounds about right

@mawr More coherent thoughts..

A solo person to service that wide a range of equipment and technologies for that many locations.. for less than 50k/year.

So I guess they want a college student that doesn't know what the fuck they are doing and will ensure they have a horribly run stack?

@mawr wow... wtf

Anyway... I suppose I should share the positive stuff too..

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/30716750/

FA link for those wanting the source.. attaching low rez to this post.

So... of course tonight is another night of drama... because like... things are okay here... and I'm really happy because I just got a commission I've been wantinng for almost half a year.. please note it was only commissioned in Jan... I just have had a specific idea from a specific person and it turned out wonderful and the artist loved doing and got tons of much deserved complements from some of the other big name artists they stream with often on it...

20 minutes after they send me the finished pieces... my mom calls me sobbing because my little brother has been arrested for two armed robberies... one we know where he was during it but supposedly his truck was there.

The other... happened during the 24 hours he was missing... and the police refused to look for him... and my mom rescued him from a gang because after they took his phone didn't turn it off and she insisted when she got it to help him with work that it have tracking enabled.

So after he had been missing and unreachable she pinged a few times, the police wouldn't show up... so she and her husband showed up at the gps location... and watched him being forced to sell drugs at gunpoint for 2 hours... before he was 'let go' and his truck 'returned' completely stripped of anything easily removed without disabling it.
The shit had been beat out of him and eventually he confessed to my mom he had been doing crack with a former friend of his that got a job at the same temp position he'd been working for the last 3 months he'd been sober..

His friend had also OD in his car while my brother was at a clinic getting his methadone a week before this.

So his buddy and him went to some place is buddy suggested to score... and they held them both at gun point, stripped and beat them and tied my brother to a chair and interrogated him because his 'buddy' was apparently a known informant and they thought my brother was one too.. supposedly. My mom saw how badly beat up he was... and saw them forcing him to deliver several suit cases to various cars at gun point.

Eventually his truck showed back up in the hotel parking lot and my brother was shoved in to the passenger seat of his truck and left in it with his hands zip tied behind his back. He had bruises and cuts on his wrists and ankles from what look like over zip ties..

Of course my mom has been terrified about talking to the police about this because they have his phone and probably everything it... and his parole office was down his throat.. because he hadn't called, or checked in... despite him calling on my mom's phone, in front of my mom and telling him they needed to talk and that he didn't have his phone anymore and to call her...

Why the fuck is my family so fucked? So... my mom calls me as I'm trying to leave to get dinner and take Aurora to work.. and after 15 minutes I have tell her that I can't keep talking, I have to go... it's 9pm... I've not had dinner and I need to take my partner to work... and she is just sobbing... and I feel like shit.. .still.

Housemate just got a look at their food too and it is wrong... so we got someone else's order completely..

Just fuck tonight... so much. Not enough that I get in a fight with partner that leaves me in tears... no

fucking doordash has to massively screw up an order that arrives late, so late that basically nothing is open... and my food is literally inedible by me.. oh and their website fails to load the help the page when I open it to request a refund. So I gueess... it is canned soup and trying not to cry again tonight.

@kistaro Everyone should have one!

@Leucrotta Yup, Oksara did a wonderful job with it!

Since I got a horny call out.. I suppose I should share the reason for it.