Wobbly One Of Myriads @wobblewuffess@awoo.space

Ugh.. my brain hurts and I feel sick... was gonna cook dinner but that sounds like effort..

WTB
A good night's sleep.

I probably need surgery but I don't have the pto and can't afford the min 4-6 weeks of downtime for it.

Plus.. despite the fact that I've gone down that road before with my shoulder I'm terrified of the prospect of surgery and pto and recovery.
My shoulder was a special case, mega-fucked, I'm lucky it works at all but.. what if surgery makes my hands worse?

I have a hard time explaining this to friends and associates. Plus like..

Can I please have robot dragon arms?

So... something that sucks about my body.

I used to text fuck a lot. I still enjoy even non-lewd roleplay stuff. But like.. we are talking several times a week at peak.

Now like.. I can't. Not often, even if I want to because lewd text fun and fapping basically guarantees my hands are unusable for the rest of the day and will be stiff and painful for the next day at minimum. Even just masturbation has the same result. Fun sexy times in meat space? Same shit.

Bleh.. only day off until Wed... was not relaxing.. tried do gamey things and just bored when my hands were cooperative.. now they hurt...because I abandoned games to clean... and then our elderly neighbor hand a tumble outside out door (using the washer) and I patched him up and carried him back to his place. There is blood all over the concrete and I have nothing to clean it up with or hands to do with and everyone else is asleep.

And I get to work 1pm-9pm tomorrow and Sunday..

Tasty kabobs helped.. yay.

Okay brain... it's time to wake up.. please wake up..

Ugh.. bad hands day and my brain is just kinda.. checking out..

Just did a bunch of switch config for a major build out and it wasn't a lot of typing but my hands feel.. tight and unpleasant around my wrists.. still 6 more hours to go.. I really just want to curl up in bed.. but there is kobold in my bed.. and i'm wfh.

Strange comet like object in the sky.. Aurora and I were debating what it was as we walked to the car. 2 minutes later we pass a bunch of fire and ems folks standing in the street filming it... Phones will not load any news or sky watch sites...
Sue the horror movie music

And then it turns out this is vm that was handed off to support, hosted on support owned vm hardware and migrated off Ops stuff in 2015.. and it wasn't even in the datacenter... now I'mma take a nap

You know what is not great? Getting woke up for a work emergency and driving to a datacenter on 3 hours of sleep after working swing shift the whole weekend..

Only for the system in question to be a ghost.. Not in any of your physical auddits.. You can find the place it clearly was.. 5 years ago... And it was being used as recently as Friday... But ops has not interacted with it since 2015.. Other than it showing up on a security audit early this month.. Because it got flagged by vun scanning

And set of a new LG Thin-Q begins... ohgod.. on the upside.. Oreo is nice.

Today I get to pull a double shift because management was unprepared for an Indian National Holiday. No I don't get paid Overtime, just honor system comp time.

One day I'll stop making the same fucking mistakes.
While I shouldn't have to put up with some of this shit, I should at least.. be smart enough to put myself in the same situations that cause it to arise in the first place.
FML... mostly good night literally ending on a fight with a partner and shitty feels because someone else can't control their temper and blew up... again while playing some sort of pvp game with us. I'm going to fucking bed and maybe the rest of my day off will be better.

So... apparently I have today off... this was not communicated to me at all. Went to check our PD rotation and my shift had an override set on it..

Well that's cool... I might have slept in a little more hand I known.. granted my body was like "NO MORE SLEEP"

So tired.... kinda want to curl up and nap... work in an hour and a half... finally home and cleansing ritual complete and fed.. just sleep storm dragoness.

So sleepy... got 4 hours of sleep now time to flap home and work a whole day wrangling clouds after a 1100 mile flight D:

I'm a coastal storm dragoness, not a mountain dragoness :<

Ugh.. being out and about and active at 8k ft all day is exhausting.

Mormon land is so strange. Running some errands and getting lunch.. because I have long curly hair and I'm wearing it down.. I'm automatically miss, ma'am and she. Even though I'm dressed pretty neutral masculine. Slate t-shirt, grey cargo shorts and grey active sandals.. maybe it is the purple mirrored full eye shield shades..