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reflecting on so many things in my past and present. feeling closer than ever to a breakthrough of some sort, as if my past trauma all has some connecting line through it that i am finally starting to recognize; and maybe, after this recognition, i could finally start to heal
therapy frustrations, re: ~
but the road there is long and frustrating, and i have no idea how to even begin looking for a new therapist now, much less one who actually has experience working with adult, masking autistics