wolfe but sad @wolfgang@awoo.space

in conclusion: i hate myself on multiple overlapping levels as usual nothing to see here move along everyone

and i wanna say this fixation on body and appearance is also probably a key part of why my sexual and romantic partners are usually terrible people?????? but that feels like stating that good looking people can't be good people, which feels...... also counter to everything i've been taught

i also hate the fact that i am so fixated on men's bodies including my own, and more generally on physical appearances including my own

everything i've ever been taught was that appearance doesn't matter etc etc, the usual progressive stuff and all that; and yet my brain refused to pick up any of that, except as a tool to criticize myself whenever i can't follow that wisdom i was taught (which is any time in my life when my sexual libido is in any way existent, i.e most but not all of my adult life)

i am everything that's wrong with the world, no matter your political views 🙃

"מְתוּקָה שְׁנַת הָעֹבֵד אִם מְעַט וְאִם הַרְבֵּה יֹאכֵל וְהַשָּׂבָע לֶעָשִׁיר אֵינֶנּוּ מַנִּיחַ לוֹ לִישׁוֹן"

"The worker's sleep is sweet whether they eat a little or a lot; but the rich person's fullness doesn't let them sleep"

not me lying on the floor and reading kohélet from my hote room bible

a person just asked me through the cafe window to give him the last few bites of my cinnamon roll. i don't want to know how hungry you have to be to do that

i gave him $10 and told him he can buy food or just anything else he wants and walked back to my hotel on the verge of tears

the most expensive thing on this trip is definitely the hotels, but a close second is the money i give to random homeless people 😭😭😭💔💔💔 smh ffs take better care of your citizens, america

i love eating tons of extremely sweet food sometimes and america can definitely deliver on that better than israel or anywhere i've been in europe 😍😍😍

i think this cinnamon roll might have an entire cup of sugar just in the icing 😍

ph- posts could, alternatively, and equivalently, be tagged as irl body horror

i discovered that the drink i grew to like at starbucks is actually caffeinated because it contains açaí and it just....... explains so much about what i've gone through physically and mentally in the past week 😶

i'm actually very much enjoying the book so far, but if i keep rolling my eyes at the racisms so much then they're gonna get stuck like that

new drinking game: reading "the innocents abroad" by mark twain and taking a shot/hitting a joint every time he does a racism

Oh My God!!!! this hotel is dog friendly!!!!!!!! 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍

pizza from a random place: i always thought it's meant as a joke when people say that something tastes like cardboard, but this pizza legit literally tasted like biting into a piece of cardboard. however it was barely just edible, and i haven't eaten enough today, soooo 3/10

i'm starting to understand why americans don't like to walk, prefer living in suburbs, and see dense cities as inherently bad

is all of the us this sketchy or is it just a bad choice of cities on my part 🤔

my trick for a consistent sleep schedule is every time i start going to sleep too late i just go a timezone or two west and problem solved

this bridge looks like my highway interchanges in cities: skylines