wolfe but sad @wolfgang@awoo.space

being depressed feels like constantly being in pain, but without any physical pain

mastodon features i want that are probably not too difficult to implement but i'm not sure i could add myself:

1. option to have the post button greyed out until i've chosen if i want it public/private/unlisted (so basically remove the default and choose every time)

2. option to, despite what i just said, have replies default to the same public-ness level as the post they're replying to (or maybe just show in the posting ui, what the public-ness level of whatever i'm replying to is)

mental health clinic: ok well set you up an appointment for a signing psychiatrist and a signing social worker since you can't speak

also that same mental health clinic: *calls me on the phone*

the phone call interpreter complimented me on my sign language :)))

honestly i sometimes wanna randomly show up on the doorstep of some people from gentle parenting tiktok and ask if they'll adopt me 🥺🥺🥺

sometimes a webbed site on the inter net will Serve Content about gentle parenting, and the comments are always like "don't be violent and/or constantly angry at your children!! or else they'll [insert short summary of my entire childhood here]"

whenever i try to convert to/from imperial units

this feels like such a basic 2nd grade math thing, but i just realized that:

5' = 150cm i.e A Short Person(tm)
6' = 180cm i.e A Tall Person(tm)

and because 4" = 10cm, i can quickly convert to metric (i.e conceptualize the height in my head) by remembering:

5'0" = 150cm
5'4" = 160cm
5'8" = 170cm
5'12" (6') = 180cm

amazing; incredible; i now finally have a cheat sheet and or some basic intuition for people's height expressed in ft'in"

games can be extremely frustrating to me because while they do use fixed sets of rules to determine everything, a lot of them don't actually TELL me what all those exact rules are, so i just have to guess and i always guess wrong and lose and get really frustrated

and like, if that's what i wanna do,, i can just go hang out with some neurotypicals instead

being in a big country and making a huge, days long, trip across it? that's some legendary ass epic shit right there

anyway it's like 7:36 am i'll go buy overpriced israeli baked goods or sth

(sure, not every store had something i'd be willing to eat at every given moment, but there were just so many times when it did help.....)

do you know how liberating it was for me to be able to go to a store and buy something approximating an actually relatively balanced dinner at 2 am??????

man i wish israeli stores had single serving ready-to-eat foods. and i'm not even talking 7 11 level variety here, i'm talking,, just like,,, salads-that-aren't-really-salads and weird mayyonaisey sandwiches at the 24/7 cvs

yet another side effect of landlords raising rents and pushing more and more people out to other cities and or the suburbs

remember how the, like, one redeeming quality of tel aviv for me was all the things that are open 24/7?

well!!! it seems like the new fashion is those businesses being closed and having a "night shift employees wanted" sign posted on their door