wolfe but sad @wolfgang@awoo.space

sometimes when i read furry stories i find myself thinking "ugh this is so unrealistic! how and why would so many different species all evolve to be anthropomorphic? it doesn't make sense!"

but then i remember that i live in the branch of the multiverse where we have the 100% real evolutionary process of carcinization

on this lonely night grindring i am reminded of my favorite quest game quote, said when you click "talk to" and then select an inanimate object:

"no way! what would i do if it answered me!"

hi! welcome to the gay community in tel aviv! we know you've been feeling out of place your whole life, but you have finally found us, a community where everyone, including people like you, are allowed to be! welcome home!

* oh unless you're introverted, sensitive to crowds or loud noises, or not conventionally attractive; in those cases fuck off and go back to the suburbs you worthless scum

i wish i could be in a non-extremely-clean place and feel comfortable

hi not tired, i'm 2am

ugh even finger spelling my legal given name in both asl and israeli sign is terrible ugh

i hate my given name so, so much; but i hate it even more when it's said with an israeli accent 🙃

appropriate time to wear my "i wanna die 😎👍" t shirt indeed

???????? what even is reality ????????? time ???????? sleep ???????? unmoving structures not hurtling themselves through the air at a thousand kph ????????? unfamiliar concepts to me

knowing how obsessed the usa is with its borders i'm really surprised i didn't get an exit stamp on my passport????????

gonna board my flight soon, officially ending my usa trip; it's been fun, and great, and terrible at times; i'd love to visit again someday

i just used the word "israeli" as if it was a language name for comedic effect, But Actually,, it is! the official spoken language is Hebrew, but the official(?) signed language is....... Israeli Sign!

so yeah! i can* communicate in: english, hebrew, american, and israeli

(* at various levels; ranging all the way from "a few dozen words at best" to "literally my native language")

it's just so quintessentially american to name your country after the continent it's on despite there being other countries on there

the Attractive People on the train have no idea but they're making me feel like shit just by being here next to me 🤪🙃

i knew i wouldn't go back home from this trip a different person, but i'm pleasantly surprised to go back home (in 2 days 🙃) having learned so much about myself

i think i also said "enjoy" when he looked confused between me and the joint and then promptly went back to signing and gestures only 🙃

have a joint to a random honelesss person and he tried to hug me so i spoke(!!) with my voice(!!!) and said "aaaa!!!!! no way man aaaaa"

like,,,,,, when i go nonverbal it's obviously capital i Inconvenient, but does it actually indicate something Bad happened/is happening? or is that an external association i've built up on top of a mostly harmless thing my brain does sometimes?

ugh i want to understand the limits of this thing, i want to understand what causes it and what it means when it does/doesn't happen; but i have no way of finding out other than doing the single thing i am worst at: listening to myself

i managed to speak last night after an entire week without; but i think i'm nonverbal again today??? idk how this works i'm so confused