Anxiety, health
So after BLFC, I used a qtip wrong and pushed some earwax in. I've also had a bump under the skin behind my jaw on the right side. I finally messaged the doctor about these things and he told me to come in.
I am trying my hardest not too panic about worst case scenarios.
Anxiety, health, familial abuse/trauma.
Part of what makes this all worse is that my family conditioned me to never go to the doctor for anything. Not for financial reasons as we had money but because of narcissism.
I had athsma at 16 due to the shitty air quality where I lived and didn't get diagnosed until closer to 18 by it finally becoming too much. When I blew on the flow meter, it didn't move. This trauma tomy lungs makes colds like a two week long affair.
