i could really use someone to tell me i'm okay right now

i'm fine, peg and i are basically fine, it's just been a bit of a stressful day (due to ongoing retinal worries and bureaucratic stress from insurance switch)

and i've put peg through a lot of my fretful panicky side and some seattle-Thing-related stuff has spilled out of the brainvault

just some crushing old regrets and guilt that can never be resolved, because i'm in a horrible double-bind that prevents me from ever being able to make amends without starting a whole new round of fighting and misery for everybody -- ntm the fact that there are a lot of things i still feel i'm legitimately pissed off about, would love to resolve, but have no remaining hope it ever could be

so if your world sucks any less cause of me or you ever caught me not being a useless neurotic prick this would be a good time to remind me

k thx luv u 😿​