mh (~), climate change (incidental; inadvertently subtooty <3 )
Heh, neat. My bout of suicidal ideation, self-loathing, and painful nostalgia has been completely replaced by running around flailing over the sheer amount of work I have to do.
Work is good. I like work. I should probably be really concerned that next to Peggy, Parallax, and the constant risk of being washed into the Gulf, it's the most exciting thing in my life right now.
Oops, there it goes again. Lookit all those friends I COULD have still had if I weren't such a mouthy dago asshole. Lookit that pile of flaming rubble that used to be a kink and/or social life. Look at all that art I've accumulated that's too painful to look at now.
Oh, well, sounds like we're all gonna be dead in 30 years anyhow, and I just can't find it in my heart not to root for the other team here, whoever the fuck they are. Palmetto bugs, if my current environs are any indication. =>_<=
I mean, sorry, after everything that's gone down in the last 150 years, you really can't expect a tiger manqué to see human extinction as anything but a good laugh. Turnabout is fair play, motherfuckers.
mh (~), climate change (incidental; inadvertently subtooty <3 )
@zebratron2084 I'm digging out my office, and making progress. Throwing a lot of old stuff away.
Hit a sketchbook of sketches of Moment playing with friends. Pushing their buttons. No point in sanding off the serial numbers and changing fur patterns, y'know, it's... I know who they were. And there's A Lot Of Stuff Attached There.
So. Art that's too painful to look at. Yeah.
That knocked me out of my tree.
And even if my current rehabilitation attempt works, how long do I have to learn to draw again, again? For what? For who?
What's the point?
I used to be able to at least talk people into a little hope. I can't do that any more, it goes wrong. Badly.
I don't know.
re: mh (~), climate change (incidental; inadvertently subtooty <3 )
@Momentrabbit *hugs tight*
OK, but counterpoint... there's a little black pointy sculpture on my desk that brings me joy and happiness every single time I see Her.
If that ain't hope, I dunno what is, babe. And you brought that to me.
I really need to get a proper phone so I can send you a snapshot of Antler Mom in all her quiet patient glory, surrounded by her Elite Defense Squad: Amethyst, Rastacorn, Nuclear Throne Robot, and Miss Rajah The Bestest Disney Princess...
As for the art? For art. For you. *nuzzles* That's how I got on the Parallax train. I just stopped giving a fuck if it was "for" anything. Honest to gods, that bullshit really works.
re: mh (~), climate change (incidental; inadvertently subtooty <3 )
@Momentrabbit But oh my gods, do I sympathize with the pain. Everything from the Taps logs to my old Dreamwidth's "friends" list to my *cough* "tax documents" folders that are mysteriously full of JPEGs... Fraught, fraught, fraught. The best I can do is compost all the shit and death and regret and hope something grows out of it.
(And ummm that I don't hurt Noa and Kirt with it so bad in the process that our paltry few readers abandon the whole comic in rage... Sorry again, kids, but Steven and Twilight are both full of shit. :p )
mh (~), climate change (incidental; inadvertently subtooty <3 )
Ouchie... yeah... I've a few of those, provided I didn't tear out the specific pages in anger and regret...
*Hugs softly*
re: mh (~), climate change (incidental; inadvertently subtooty <3 ), misanthropy
Oh, wait. I would've been dead in 30 years anyhow _anyhow_. Good luck, millennial suckers. :D
Nah, honestly, if I weren't in the mood to just indulge the pessimism, I'd make a big rallying Jeff Winger Speech about how humanity took all of eight years to master nuclear fission once we decided that's what we wanted. So once the sociopolitical dimensions of this are conquered...
Well, anyhow, that logical path's reserved for somebody who hasn't already decided they're happy if a few select mammal and bird species survive, and would actually kinda rather see humanity get knocked down to ~1700 AD populations anyhow...
Listen, humanity's not gonna go extinct. Our "civilization" is. What, you think life in the resulting Mad Max environs is gonna be any more difficult than being, say, an Inuit or a San Khoisan? You have no idea how little a human being can get by on... because you're a citizen of the 21st-century developed world. You don't have to like it— I sure don't— but something will survive. And maybe it'll prove humanity doesn't deserve total extinction after all.
Anyhow. Rambling. Need to work. Not sure I care. It all seems so futile now.</paranoid_android> :)