hi, I'm still here, just busy and anxious with moving!
moving (+, ~, -, survivor's guilt, ?)
my spouse and I are uh... homeowners now
every now and then whenever we're both home, one of us will perk up and go "house!" and the other will let out a little scream for comedic effect because it's so wild and scary that this is suddenly happening
I've had this post sitting open for a while now reluctant to say anything else because home ownership is out of a lot of my peers' reach and I feel like I've done a lot less than any of them to deserve it
moving (+, ~, -, survivor's guilt, ?)
on the other hand, I should probably examine this feeling that talking about good things in my life can *only* make others who don't have those things feel bad.
the other option, that someone might actually like me enough to feel happy for me, is something I *never* feel intuitively and have to consciously remind myself of.
I should probably get back in therapy because although in many ways my life's never been better, there's still that kernel of self-hate
