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I guess the best way to sum up my mood lately is... last 20 pages of an obnoxiously allegorical kids' fantasy. The kind where the kid ends up back in reality and it's a big parable about Growing The Fuck Up, and isn't it lovely that you had this experience, and you'll treasure it forever, but now it's time to go work in a bank and listen to your mum. :p
It's still a happy-ending kind of disenchantment. I'm not, like, being tormented by the fairies anymore. But still: disenchantment.
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@zebratron2084 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
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@zebratron2084 I've had those feelings of late too, but I think maybe that's in the nature of it, and maybe the reason so many stories end like that is it's so ACCURATE to the creative experience. Sure, maybe WE can't go back... but we can smith-up a new set of keys for the next crop of wide-eyed, charmingly-doomed adventure teens.
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@hystericempress *high five* Damn straight, sis. I'm mostly playing these days to the inside straight of "What if Parallax actually finds an audience and we get to do this for real?" That'd make this whole saga feel like a real big win—and the thought HAS crossed my mind that there are a lot worse things than a nice, quiet, contemplative exile... I wouldn't be the first person to do their life's best work in one.
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Still. In the immortal words of St. Marjorie: "It's an ending. That's enough." :)
I wouldn't go back. And if I can't find another damn portal to the Otherworld in NEW ORLEANS of all the damn places, I wasn't cut out to be there in the first place.
And I am, as soon as we get some mundane paperwork in order, about to marry a dragonwitch. And we are followed everywhere by black cats. That's... a lot to walk away from this whole disaster with.
I'll be OK. Beats rabies.
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