re: mh (-), gender (-), "playful" sui ideation
@spacewastrel@yiff.life Nah, honestly, a lot of this is expected bad brain weather due to medical-related stuff that is a known issue I just am not ready to talk about. (I'm intact and should remain so, promise! :) )
The suicidal ideations bubbling up are concerned but not at all surprising, and I know them well enough to know their chance of escaping into action are 0%. I just have too many Nice Things in my life right now to listen.
But venting it all out here in the meantime is EXTREMELY therapeutic as a way of organizing all this in front of friendly witnesses. Hope I'm not worrying y'all too much. Really, you're all doing exactly what I need, already, just by listening. <3