Once again, my cannabis use has crept up to unacceptable levels after my prior choice to stop ended when I thought I found patterns of use that would be acceptable again. I quickly went right past them and came up with new limits, which I also exceeded.

I have been perpetually tired and distant mostly due to cannabis overuse. This is not acceptable, and I will once again stop. I think my odds are better if I taper off more slowly; I now have a plan over the next two months to taper off and discontinue use entirely. I've written it in ink in my Hobonichi Techo and hopefully I'll take it seriously, as a result.

I guess I'm just not a person who can use cannabis safely. Which is sad, because it's a lot of fun, and it makes me stop dreaming so I don't have constant, constant anxiety dreams and nightmares. But it is also steadily ruining my life, so it is time to stop for good.

That's a hard thing to do in a very pro-cannabis environment and social group, but y'know what? I'm going to do it anyway. I think spaces that are friendly to substance use need to also be tolerant of people for whom no level of substance use is safe due to a pronounced tendency to escalate to substance abuse, and there's no way for that statement to be made other than by there being someone in that category, who is doing okay.