I'm depressed... mostly ok, but rambly.
I feel lonely.
I'm not... but it feels like it as I sit here every night after a shift of work of avoiding my coworkers as much as possible, and then watch videos that I can't interact with, or post here to be silly in my reactions and replies... and I don't really want to change these things... it's just...
... sometimes, I feel very isolated, and I entirely did this to myself because social things are really friggin' difficult for me to not constantly scream at myself that I'm doing it WRONG (tm), and no, I don't really know what WRONG (tm) means... that's part of the anxiety.
Something I'm doing is WRONG (tm), and I can't define it, so I can't ever actually work on it.
And all this is a very long winded way of saying that I just want to play a game with someone else, and not feel like I'm ruining it by just being there. I... don't know how to do that... I wish I did...
re: I'm depressed... mostly ok, but rambly.
@JulieSqveakaroo Huh. We got a LOT of us shy folk around feelin' kinda lonely and isolated. I'm really not much of a gamer so I have zero suggestions but... maybe there's something that does, like, small local multiplayer games and has a little social component that our crew could colonize and hang out? Something lowkey where we know it's just folks from our circle... The 2023 equivalent of "old farts playing canasta." :)
re: I'm depressed... mostly ok, but rambly.
@trouffee @JulieSqveakaroo I'd be fine with having you in! Very open to game suggestions. Was a *tad* tempted by Ozymandias (since I enjoyed the couple goes at Civ multiplayer we've had over the years) but I'd need to have a closer look at its private-game options.