more venting, more meh, sehnsucht, mild AT spoiler
Looking at tf art is probably a really really really bad idea right now.
It's not even our usual "god I wish I were this thing." Right now it's provoking feelings more like "I wish I were a thing."
It's not any species I long for being, it's... just being a shapeshifter in general. I needed a lot of mana and some very specialized circumstances at the best of times, my powers were already waning, and now my ley lines have been abruptly cut.
more venting, more meh, sehnsucht, mild AT spoiler
(Granted, if I have to continue this metaphor, I'm moving in with @egypturnash --
a FUCKING DRAGONESS whom I've already joked is a goddamn mana well. :D We have some things to sort out about that part of our life, but we have a pretty good history of this stuff going pretty well between us. :D
Still. Having ONE source is gonna put a lot of pressure on both of us. I really need to find A Place. Preferably anonymous. :p )
more venting, more meh, sehnsucht, mild AT spoiler
There's just no comfortable place to Do My Thing anymore. The best thing about leaving Transliminal is maybe I'll finally stop making futile attempts at making it happen there.
I should be putting all this into Parallax, anyhow. I have a whole world. No limits. I can make it do anything I want. I can channel all my love and bitterness into it.
Insert positive-thinking mantra here that I don't really believe anyhow. ("Alriiiiight!"</linda> :) )