drilling for brain samples
I seem to be having a severe metaphysical allergy to something on social media today. There is absolutely no way to approach the exact subject tactfully and I don't really endorse my reaction-- I can't see any place in the process where anyone's done wrong-- so I'm not going to go into detail. Something is just putting my ennui generators into overdrive today. I got a huge head start on work this weekend, and I think today I'm gonna cash it all in and do nothing at all.
drilling for brain samples
I just wish I knew what the fuck to do for anyone. Maybe I've just taken too much SAN damage this year to be of any value to anyone and need another couple months in the hermitage.
drilling for brain samples
more #moodsnapshot
that bit about "coming to a mysterious close"
how in the fuck can any single elemnent of my life possibly be sustainable for very long
drilling for brain samples
(if it's any consolation, if I'm a little self-destructive at this point it's not like "pondering tall buildings," it's more like "don't really give a fuck about my sodium intake anymore" and I don't expect it to get any worse than that -- i am as bored with the notion of death as i am with the notion of life :p )
drilling for brain samples
@zebratron2084 *bitebite* I will resume hectoring you for social interaction next week, dammit. this is not exactly apropos of the thread but sort of indirectly maybe? idk hi :D
drilling for brain samples
I think this article has been weighing heavily on me, too. Be warned, MAJOR content advisory. It's about dealing with severe mental health issues in one's family, and it hits hard. I've especially been looking at the author's "suicide by installments" suspicions about his father and wondering if that doesn't describe my own late father... and me. This does feel like a good year to close the book & pack it in, but god, death's so much WORK. >_<
https://folks.pillpack.com/my-father-the-werewolf/