really dark stuff
I have some really dark and complicated feelings about suicide and loss, and recent events have hit them a bit hard.
I'm at very low risk for harming myself right now, but... there are some things about all this that are leading to some really difficult cognitive dissonance for me, stuff I don't think it would be respectful or productive to talk about out loud.
You have my utmost sympathies and offers of support, but I'm mostly going to try to put the subject out of my mind.