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I really need to do a major core dump at someone soon, preferably someone familiar with my situation. I haven't wanted to bother anyone but I'm still recovering from that fight with the ex-housemates a couple months ago, and I'm getting tired of second-guessing everything I do since then.
I'm real optimistic that I'll pull through this, but this is just kind of a weird transitional time for me in general and my reserves are a bit low. No emergency here, just tired of spinning in circles.
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Basically the process of figuring out what really happened has involved opening up my emotional vault. And I'm pretty confident I got at least some of the answers, but... damned if I can figure out how I fit all this painful old crap into this tiny freaking vault. -_-
And I'm just out of kitten pictures and weak humor today. I still feel like I'm living in exile. I can get through this, but I'm so tired of sitting here just ruminating with no input. Like a black box gadget built to mope.
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I'm okay, for some value of okay. I'm intact and taking more than just the basic self-care measures. Peg has been amazing, the occasional IMs from y'all have been very welcome, I'm still beaming from that raise...
I mean, I just completed my Comedy Bang! Bang! collection, so I can hold out here indefinitely. ;p I think I just might be done with hiding out in self-disgust. I shut down a lot of emotional circuits this year as a precaution, and I don't know if I can get by with them off.
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And in the event anyone but my own critical inner voice was asking: yes, I intend to get back into therapy... but I want to give you such a pinch for saying it. ;p
I think what I really need right now, on a therapeutic level, is a zero-calorie prescription cheesecake that tastes just like the real thing. -_-
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@zebratron2084 (If only, right?)
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@zebratron2084 I would also like this cheesecake please tell me more. :)