Insecurity, vulnerability, expression, kink-talk
I'm fat. 400 pounds. A lot of internalizing good thoughts about this is my kink exploring the extremes of being fat. Ageplay is another thing on this list. I like being a little girl. But I struggle with feeling like I'm bad for this. I further deal with this by fetishizing validation via having my interests projected onto a dom-figure, removing agency and therefore possibility of greed, which pushes me into non-con RP fantasies.
Insecurity, vulnerability, expression, kink-talk
Like... All of these things lead me into darker places. Lead me into places that I know a lot of people can't follow. It leaves me feeling alienated, like I don't belong anywhere. I am thankful that I've found people willing to help me. Because it's incredibly difficult to do it on my own...
To remember that I'm not bad. Even if I'm not for everyone, I'm good for some people.