kink - ageplay but also vent
I tend to actually have issues conceptualizing my own age. Because I never feel like an adult but I feel like I need to do adult things. I've been at least good at not requiring I give up kid-like things to be mature, but I've still felt the pressure to be the smart, in control one for others. To be mature to lead. To be the mom. So I feel so conflicted, like I'm trying to have it both ways.
kink - ageplay but also vent
So I feel like I'm in some liminal space between being a kid and being an adult. Not even teenager like, just... Nowhere, really. I guess that sorta contributes to why I want my partners to sorta help define me, I guess... to tell me I *am* something, to reaffirm a place that I'm allowed to be.