mh, sui ( - - - )
This morning's talk from my partner was "having faith in anything is horrible and delusional" mixed with "all queer people will be dead in the next 7 years" (trump related)
I remember trying to get laundry done, and just... turned into crying in the kitchen with a knife in hand, it just felt like the only way out. Eventually convinced to put it down, but the talking continued.
I remember curling up crying... and now it's 2 hours later and I'm at my desk... what?
mh ( - ? )
Is... is it bad I can't hate people strongly? Like... Milo or Trump or Pence or Putin or the rest. I don't actively want to hurt these people with my own hands. Although I'd not argue a guillotine for each.
I... don't hate enough? My partner hates cis people for the oppression and deaths of trans folks, but... I can't do that. Is something wrong with me?
mh ( - ? )
@mawr if you say so. I can't shake the feeling I'm being a failure though?
Looking out on the pile of chores and art and obligations ahead of myself, I want to just curl up and hide. I don't really have time for that, but... I don't know what else to do.
mh ( - ? )
@Draekos no, and if more people had your inability to hold hatred then the world would be a much better place.
mh ( - ? )
@Draekos Not in the least, hon. Your responses to these situations are absolutely valid and perfectly reasonable.