@Silverwing​ I keep thinking of you because the term r_a*i_a keeps showing up in the derivation I'm working on :P https://awoo.space/media/8jmxvjFl50qc-_RgZd8 https://awoo.space/media/cDYHM6iQ1zGvMsJW398 https://awoo.space/media/HAcdilLODFN9x20rADU

@Felthry ahhhhhh *swish* wonderful :) 💙

@Silverwing now that I'm looking at it again, I notice that a couple times it shows up alongside e_a(t). Is this thing telling me to eat you? I don't think I want to do that!

@Silverwing anyway it's good to see you again! It's been a while.

I don't get to see you often so I guess I just feel like I should say hi and stuff when I can, even if I am horribly awkward and have no idea what I am doing!

@Felthry it is good to see you again too :) V is generally terrible at handing me the reigns sometimes.

@Silverwing Well, ve'll get better at it, I hope. Wish I had advice, but... Eh, memories of when I was multiple are kind of fragmented and I don't know if I could piece together anything useful for you. Probably not without getting into an unpleasant mental space, even if I could.

Sometimes I wish I had someone to hand the reins to, but... ech. It's not for me, I think. I especially wouldn't want someone to end up being "the person who fronts when there's bad stuff happening", that'd be unfair.

@Felthry *nods* yeah, it is, but i am sure ve will get better. And yes, i would not want you to go to such a stressful mindspace.

@Silverwing
There's a bit of a nagging feeling that I'd be able to.... semi-split?? Rosemary back into existence, though I think Xolroc is pretty fully integrated into me

I don't know. Just thinking, I guess. I do kind of miss them, but.... There are quite a few unpleasant memories tied up with being multiple and I don't know if I'll ever work through them. But I wonder. I keep telling myself it's not for me, but I wonder sometimes if it is.