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Hello, I’d like to stop being the paladin in the group and live a little. I’d like to skip to the part in the hero redemption arc where I’m accepted as the flawed and weird person that I am, instead of everyone thinking I’m wrong or somehow faking it.
Which is another way of saying, I’d like to be more approachable and actually talk about what I like again, but reversing the damage from the past years to where I’m comfortable is kind of hard on me right now.
Weh. ;..;
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I am also kind of incredibly thankful for everyone that tolerated me while I went through the bad parts over a year ago.
The penance arc the mind puts you through after leaving a group, where you don’t understand what’s going on and don’t want to cause more harm, really sucks and I do not recommend it to anyone.
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I guess that’s more of a vent than a hot take. Eh.
I think I’m going to go back to doodling cutes while puzzling over Opus Magnum to take my mind off of difficult things.
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@Goldkin Honestly, as much as everyone has tried to avoid it, the whole political collapse of the late '10s has really robbed many people I know of their glow, so to speak. To an extent, I've even noticed this with myself. :/
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@Thaminga Yeah. I know for me, it’s difficult to communicate, “I want to make nice things and not participate in interpersonal politics to the greatest degree possible” when so many people were thrown into this climate of trying to politicize everything.
Which is maybe why it’s so important to have spaces like Masto that can let people build with fewer hot tempers and nazis to worry about.
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Related: I need to get comfortable with kink and lewds on main again. I have no idea why those were the first to go when birdsite got so bad, other than as a self-preservation mechanism.