Mh~ journaling
The good news is, for obvious reasons I didn’t enjoy a worldview rooted in crappy self worth, and I cope a lot better with more acceptance.
The worse news; these crummy experiences were still terrible, the bitterness, distrust, anger, poverty and lost time are still there even if my acceptance of self changes, and it is very likely too late for me to truly get what I want in life as a result.