2017
-Sank deep into postfurry-ness, which included:
+Rediscovering myself as otherkin through furry-fandom-observation, philosophical musings about technology, and heavy introspection into my past, interests, etc
+Rediscovered my spirituality along the way, by learning of belief and the power of self narrative and perception
+Looked at my past furry self of being a glowy, futuristic, kinky weirdo and going "Okay, maybe I have always been postfurry as fuck actually"
2017
-Made lots of new friends, drifted from others
-Made a lot of realizations, and found purpose through aforementioned epiphanies, about what I want out of life, how I want to live my life, and WHY I am here
-Pretty quickly accepted myself as more nonbinary and fluid than a trans girl. Have slowly and gradually dropped 'she' as a mentioned pronoun pref
-Actually found a seasonal internship job working in education as field tech (IT). Actually enjoyed it, despite its' hardships
2017
-A la previous job, had a high note of working with younger, K-aged kits and hearing them all call me "miss [legal name]" which was like. SERIOUS MOM FEELS ANS TRANSITION ACHIEVEMENTS
-formulated further plans that have been in the works for ~3 years, to move to Seattle, establish a footing there, and eventually live with my SO(s)
-FURTHER formulated and set a date, bumped up a few months from originally planned, to the end of January
2018
2018
Holy fuck I don't even. I can barely think past January/February right now. I'm about to uproot my life and leave basically everything I've known. I would be -absolutely- terrified if it weren't for the community I am in, and the love that I have. I do NOT know how I would be getting through this otherwise. this community and my loves have made me genuinely feel that I am moving -into- somewhere I already have a place. I can't express how much that helps
2018
I'm looking forward to things settling down, for sure, and working through things as time goes. It helps that my whole household and three other close friends are also heavily leaning towards moving also. At the very least, I have good friends I've leaned on for years moving to the same general place, and that helps me, mentally, in feeling less like I'm leaving -everything- here.
It's like that weird feeling you get before transition that's like "I can't even wait for the -shit- days"
2018
I'm sure everything will seem like a scream of varying intensity for a few months, but I'm honestly looking forward to the night I go to sleep next to @emanate and wake up knowing that this is like... more or less my life now.
I'm looking forward to.. actually -contributing- to a community and looking forward to working hard. I've never felt so full of purpose as I do, and even though I always worry, perhaps excessively, about putting things on a pedestal... Seattle IS where my future is