depression
the worst part about sinking so far into the worst parts of my own emotions like this is that productive things i enjoy feel completely inaccessible or pointless
like "i could work on music/game dev/drawing but i wouldn't put good work into it and i doubt i'd make progress on anything good anyway"
so i'm stuck doing, implausibly, even more nothing than when i'm feeling okay
depression
@typhlosion it's like the weather, and sometimes all you can do is hope to ride it out