woo
@Oneironott I actually had a very similar question for @literorrery a couple days ago. the answer, for me, is that I want to recover the abilities I used to have and lost (Because Reasons), and I want to recover and use them because 1. I want to connect to my deity better 2. I want to reconnect to my past in a way I can't currently 3. life was just more fun and exciting when I was able to do that stuff.
it's okay to just want more. that's an okay thing to want. :)