Hey Awoo + friends, i really need some help. Im very suddenly out of a job, struggling to find a new one/make money, and am halfway through a really important part of my transition.
I have AWFUL species dysphoria that causes enough distress that Im in therapy for it, and getting paw tattoos on my feet has been a huge step in relieving that. In order to afford the other half of my tattoo I need at least $150 to cushion the $300 cost. Paypal donations to chris@sgreig.com are honestly appreciated.
species dysphoria, self harm
To give some background, I've been struggling with species dysphoria since I was a little kid. I've always felt my body was wrong, needed to be more canine than primate, on four paws not two feet. It's caused me the same distress as my gender dysphoria and I've just as badly wanted to injure myself, have had just as much immobilizing depression, and have felt just as divorced, alien, and dissociated from my body as my gender dysphoria makes me feel. This is HELL.
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I've talked about it in therapy alongside discussions of my gender, because really they're one in the same. My androgyny relies on my nonhumanity and my gender is informed by it. They're entirely inseparable for me, and that's why I consider this as much a part of my whole transition of being as anything else. I can't transition gender-wise without the species modifications, too. I will never be comfortable or happy without both sides of myself fulfilled and recognized.
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Over and over for an entire year, I had to put my first appointment to get the first paw done off over and over because finances have been so hard. And when I finally got the first paw done, I CRIED. I cried and smiled at it for so long, stretching out my footpaw and finally seeing something right and connecting with that part of my body. And I can't push off my appointment on the 30th now for another gods-know-how-long. I can't stand this ugly, distressing mismatch. It hurts.
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Just wanted to keep others in the loop! I still need more but I've gotten donations already and I honestly still can't believe it and am deeply appreciative of every single one. Even small donations help and I'm really honest-to-gods floored and moved that folks would help me out like this. Thanks everyone who's donated and boosted so far! I got 5 days left till the appointment and Im still under target so it's definitely still open!
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@howlingalice
I donated. Hope that helps. I'd like to maybe be able to do something like that for my species dysphoria some day, and, well... yeah. I could spare a little money, so there you go.
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@myst It's incredibly appreciated, and I wish you luck in your own struggles with dysphoria :pray_hmn_v2:
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And I don't know how many people will take this seriously. I figured this would be the place I'd have the most luck, but even here I worry.
There's only so much I can do to get someone to treat this with the same seriousness as an SRS donation post. But I'm not lying when I express how badly I need this, how much my therapist has supported my whole transition, how incredibly painful it is to live this way knowing people think I'm a joke.
All I can ask is for help. :(