Last week was the last of my 4 days of 10 hour shifts.

I got to spend a little bit of Friday with my boy, and then Saturday I watched a movie with my friends over Jitsi.

There has been some good for me this year. Good friends, fleeting moments of gender euphoria, wardrobe additions that are making me feel good about myself instead of "Orthosona disguise maintenance" I got some skirt time in, I actually got ma'am-ed once. That was a nice day 3 months ago.

There have been new online spaces I've found that are welcoming and comforting, and others I've grown apart from.

I found new art that speaks to me in new ways, and I can sometimes make some of it for myself and its compelling to people besides me.

My ears healed up enough I could put in my real earrings instead of the studs I wore for work. More bimbo hoops are in my future, cause that's what Kelsey needs to be seen. *shrug* not gonna fight it, easier to roll with it.

I've taken approximately 3-4 good selfies this year. And I sent some nudes. and I've cammed to a public chat! (kept my mask on. sometimes)

I got teargassed at my first social protest (Ever!. felt really guilty about that. still do. But some rando handed me a shittily-built plywood shield and for the rest of the afternoon, I knew what I had do to. I've always felt strongest when I had to be protective.)

I saw Hamilton (on Disney+. and burned through Hamilton Youtube. Still am, really. so that's kinda par for the course, so its close enough to having seen it in theaters. Verdict: It is worth the bandwidth to pirate, if not the price.)

I'm a good puppy count: 11

I have gotten more art in one year than i have in the previous 8.

I'm playing with a new alt who is so much fun to think about and explore and experiment with.

I came out to my parents. I got a walking around letter. My name change stuff is my next big step. and I want to have that finished by my birthday.

Top Tracks this year: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cAndmB2Adfc
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4NRXx6U8ABQ
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v7b7yXi1kds

I sold Sable. I don't have a bike to replace her with.

I almost got my dream car. I was close enough to sit in it and drive it. I'm still kinda sad I didn't go for it. Maybe i should have. Yes this happened last year, but I'm still raw about it. I've had to sit with it for the whole year.

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Been a little busy. This year won't really be missed. I don't know if anyone is going to really think about 2020 100% fondly. But I also can't discount the real progress i've made, nor do I have to apologize for surviving it. (I will, because I know i've survived when others haven't, and I'm me and wasn't worth it.)

Heck off 2020. I'll be glad when your done and I we can all collectively try to recover from the trauma of a never-ending March.