depression, or at least a busted brain; vivid
@makyo Ouch. >.< *hugs* I can related to that a little due to Dakota's depression issues. Just so your brain knows, even if it doesn't believe it right now, you're beautiful and kind and you deserve only happiness.
(RE: suicidal ideation, mine mostly comes through as "I will literally cut my own throat to escape this absolutely world-blinding pain." Total animal panic. Not sure if you get that one too.)