BinaryVixen899 @BinaryVixen899@awoo.space

Today is a wander around and explore day and I am 100% okay with that

Every part of me feels affected by this ridiculously hot summer day even the parts of me that aren't tangible. How the heck does that work. How does therianthropy even work? How the heck can my phantom fur feel /heavier/ because of the heat. How does this even work?!?

most people:
"Wow Hideo Kojima is a good game developer"
me:
"Yeah he's a really good music curator. He always spotlights the best unheard of songs.

@Oneironott it felt like i was communicating what I have known since I was a kid, that I am a fox anthro. Not “I find foxes really cool” or “foxes are neat and I wish I could be one” (although both of those are true) but /I am a fox anthro/ in every way but physical. It felt like I communicated that with a human, and that human /got it/, understood it, saw me. It felt validating. Affirming. Euphoric.

@Oneironott relief? euphoria? finally being able to be /ourselves/???? I have no idea. obviously physically transitioning into a preferred form isn’t an option yet but, what would socially transitioning look like for nonhumans??? is that a possibility that can be implemented??? lots of thoughts swirling through my head atm

And what does that mean for activists such as myself? Who’s going to turn on the lights & start radical nonhuman activism? Is it going to be the next generation? When’s it going to happen? My mind is buzzing, racing, with the possibilities of the future and my tail is swishing

It’s not a big secret that people who identify as non-human tend to have worse health outcomes, that they tend to struggle in many of the same ways as any other group of individuals that have to suppress a part of their identity out of fear of retribution from society.

It’s not a big secret that people who identify as non-human tend to have worse health outcomes, that they tend to struggle in many of the same ways as any other group of individuals that have to suppress a part of their identity out of fear of retribution from society.

My therapist and I had an amazing talk that basically boiled down to a lot of identity affirmation and positivity and I just, he’s really making me think; what would the future look like if non-human identities were something that people were educated about?

Just /indulging/ in being nonhuman is so great
Just taking a second to go ahead and thoroughly enjoy your own phantom limbs, or your own fursona, or whatever
Just to be there, be present, as nonhuman
It's so great. <3

Finished Horizon: Zero Dawn. That was incredible. Gives me a lot of hope for the future of gaming, but, it’s also just an amazing and incredibly well done story that has left me with a lot to think about.

Me.

A me I like living in and as.

And the way I present myself, and the things that make me, and all that other stuff. It feels acceptable. It feels okay. I feel like I have control of my body, for once. It feels like me. A me that I have made. A me that I can live with. A me I'm, okay with. Happy with.

But, I'm happy. For the first time in a while I can, look at myself in the mirror and I can feel. I made this. This is good enough. I made this happen. This is me. This is a me that is acceptable to me.

And, this is just talking about gender. It's not even getting into the other things about my body that cause me immense pain. It's not getting into chronic pain issues or fatigue or the fact I can never have a physical tail in my lifetime. It isn't even touching any of that.

Obviously, it's not possible to get all of the physical changes I want. Those small things like the characteristics of my face, the /just not right/. Those, "but if I had been born a cis woman, my hands would look /right/", that stuff, the technicalities, not possible.

I don't know if there is an end point to transitioning. But I feel like I have reached a point where I don't feel the disgust I used to feel constantly with my body. I don't feel like I'm forever trapped in something that isn't me.