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........so like..... are SSRIs supposed to make everything numb and intensify the apathy? Been on a low dose of Fluoexetine and it just seems to blur life?
Been trying to push though? Like it's harder to pull out of shitty moods, but maintaining a bland "eh" mood is easier?
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@AzureHusky yeah... I dunno. Robotic doesn't really fit? Kinda like like... emotions are de-saturated a bit?
Should have had an appointment to talk about it on monday. Doctor cancelled. Still haven't found the spoons to make the 3 minute phonecall to book a new one :/
Good Girl Energy
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@Draekos yeah its worth talking to them when they're able. I had some make me feel robotic, some like I was feeling everything through a fog, one that made me MORE anxious... Doctors don't prepare ppl enough for the fact that it may take several tries to find a good one
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@AzureHusky I mean, he mentioned it, but trying to talk to him to try a new one hasn't really happened.
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@Draekos I'm sorry. I hope you can find the energy to call him for a new appointment soon.
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@Draekos yes, ssris make your mood stay at meh, which is way better than constant fukken void devouring you inside, imho
did you just start? it takesa while to get accustomed
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@efi it's been about 2 months?
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@Draekos that's about the time it took me to stop locking my jaw
it took a year before I could use my garbage consistently
I don't know when it started to get me consistently ok instead of meh, but it took several months
the starting months are rough, but after you can take higher doses, due to tolerance, the meh starts being more manageable and less imposed meh
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@efi ........oh boy, can't wait.
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@Draekos depression is a fuck
I'd hate it if I wasn't on meds haha
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I'd be dead without the meds, more likely, so
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@efi yeah I getcha. Kinda... Kinda having a lot of those sort of thoughts right now? <_<; not a good day in my skull right now.
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@Draekos being in love helps a lot with depression, tho~~
:* <3
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@efi no. no it doesn't. Just makes me feel more broken because everything about the life I live should mean I don't feel this way but I still do.
Being outside of a relationship helped for a while.
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@Draekos oh, I see...
I mean, it helped me when I had gay kisses, that made me feel good...
anyway, if you need a hug or a million I'm here for you, just ask <3
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@Draekos That sounds about like where I was on Fluoxetine. Everything was dampened - my lows weren’t quite as low but my highs were shaved down too and everything just felt all flat and sensationless without any emotional range attached.
I juggled a few more before finally slipping off of SSRIs entirely; been more focusing on mindfulness therapy.
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@Draekos MASSIVE DISCLAIMER: I have never taken antidepressants outside of hormones. I have been living with someone who's taken several different antidepressants over a period of nineteen years.
My observation has been that SSRIs generally work by flattening all affect across the board. The lows become less crippling, but the highs become less heady and satisfying. Also, different SSRIs can "normalize" to different levels depending on personal biology and circumstance.
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@Draekos I admit I'm very biased against SSRIs, but I generally find that most people do not have the best luck with them vs their side effect profile.
Was any consideration given to welbutrin? It's a NRDI IIRC
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@Draekos depends on the SSRI. They're extremely hit or miss and it may take trying several to find one that feels right. I found I didn't like the ones that made me feel so dampened I felt kind of robotic