headspace depressiony things?
That feeling when one 'face' has been out and taking a lot of stress and shifting to another for a while actually feels like the former is taking a break and the latter is a less shitty mood.
Brains are weird and sometimes it feels like there's too many people in mine D:
headspace depressiony things?
@Draekos Oh, I didn't know you were multiple/semimultiple/whatever-the-word-is.
Brains are weird indeed! I hope your weirdness remains tolerable or even positive. It's so hard to find a place that honors warranty on brains.
headspace depressiony things?
@Felthry it's uhm... an odd mix of plural and just general 'creative person gets too into things'?
I often refer to which character is in the driver's seat? Partly because I enjoy just presenting differently, but I've noticed I actually act differently too. Not like, drastic swings or anything, just slighty different trains of thought. Is enjoyable.
headspace depressiony things?
@Draekos This seems like a good mindset to have. I need to maybe try to get myself into this mindset because when I was fully plural I had constant "is this real or not" anxiety and sometimes now I still feel a little... uncreative? Like I'm afraid to play a character in case I end up becoming multiple again (which I do not want to do)
headspace depressiony things?
@Felthry I find myself wander in and out of it in phases. some days I feel phantom pains of squished tail against chairs, or wings brushing on walls. I have two taur characters who have been in the driver's seat off and on and hoboy body hysphoria gets huge there.
Other days... weeks, months, I'll feel 'normal' and fine being my squishy meat girl me at a keyboard with a cute dragon/bird people know me as.
headspace depressiony things?
@Draekos That sounds a lot like me, except I'm never really comfortable stuck in this human body. I deeefinitely know the phantom tail/taurbody/etc things. I might even get it worse than you at times--imagine having multiple additional phantom heads, none of which are attached to your body! It can be disorienting.
And yeah. I need to try to do that lean-into-it and not-fight-it thing. I am trying, sort of. kinstuff is weird and sometimes hard but usually nice.
headspace depressiony things?
@Felthry atypical selfcare tends to be, I've noticed <3