Fen @Fenreliania@awoo.space

@andlabs I love the fluffy hair!

home time home time home time!!
Gamedev and DOOM! Shoot demons, pure adrenaline and testosterone! As a girl! TESTOSTERONE GIRL!

@chusday Thank you!! 💜

Hey hey by the way

If something of mine is boostable you can boost it, duh!

@chusday Apparently my phone's camera is very bad! But here are some pictures of me trying very hard to be cute! I really wish I shaved yesterday because my beard is very scruffy now!
https://awoo.space/media/YbDGYXcH67V2XFp7ebw https://awoo.space/media/ZYk5u8UNJiAMqjE5ftA https://awoo.space/media/8mmsT2I0ji0eWUTBQmY https://awoo.space/media/Wfof28QUTx-QI1y_d10

@chusday ^^ you're very kind! I will try and get a good picture when I get a chance!

*huffs and flops* I will get mad at anyone who gets mad at my friends including the friends themselves.

@andlabs *cuddles*

training time, will be back to be cute later~~~

aahh! I keep remembering my hair is a mousey blonde and not a luscious beautiful fluffy brown like I adore... I should figure out some ways to style this nicely I guess. Don't want to dye my hair yet, for several reasons.

Would be nice if I had somewhere I could just go be a girl for a bit. Like a female friend I'm comfortable with who'd take care of me and girl me out for a day or something. I dunno.

I don't though, so I just have to grow out my hair and learn how to style it.

I mean I am leaning into the femininity more than it feels like my urges call for, and while I know that's partly because I just damn well want to right now, I'm not totally sure of the whole reason.

[[GIRL INTENSIFIES]]

I was thinking to myself "maybe it was just a brief phase of being excited and I don't really want to be more girly" and then I started dancing and being cute while listening to music and was like NO DAMN YOU OF COURSE I WANNA BE CUTE DUH

Like screw dresses yeah. I don't really want to wear a dress (I like dresses on other people though) but I do wanna have the style my avatar has.

What if... I just want to wear cute clothes that look kinda girly? What if I just want to look cute in a kinda girly way? I think this might be getting closer to the mark but who knows.

Anyway, goodnight sweeties~

In the kind of mood where I want to collapse to my knees and look at you with sad watery eyes and find comfort in your kind caring embrace. I want to be a cute anime girl but I'm also worried that might not be what I really want.
Whatever, boy mode, I wanna hug so many cute girls.

@dolljoints I want my presentation to match how I feel, whether that's about my gender or my emotions or what I have to do that day - got a real strong attachment to aesthetics.
Definitely right about the gender though, but it's still kinda weird and hard to understand. Like I feel girly and like girly but also somehow don't feel *like a girl*? But it's just... weird. I feel weird, and I wanna be cute.