-, working through a mood crash because of the holiday
My holidays with friends were the best I ever had, and I miss them so very, very much right now.
I’ll be doing a small thanksfeasting thing tomorrow with my roommate’s friends and family, and that will be good, I think.
I’m putting this here, mostly, because I want to figure this out. I miss my once-friends, I miss my once-community, and I don’t know how to work through any of the complexity that caused me to isolate in the first place.
-, working through a mood crash because of the holiday
I did do a bit of social gaming, which was very good for me during the holiday proper. My mood crashed when I came up for air from that, and that... isn’t something I’m used to.
I’ll also assuredly be okay. But I... think I should be doing more than mood stabilization and self-care? I’m not sure.
I just wish I knew what to do other than feel kind of adrift and appreciative at a distance, while continuing to self-isolate from old anxiety.
-, working through a mood crash because of the holiday
In short: ramble ramble, flail, flop, I wish I knew how to holiday anymore.